"You can't always get what you want. But if you try sometimes, you just might find you get what you need."
This about sums up my life right now. Didn't get what I wanted (an acceptance letter to vet school - a year ago), but I did get a decent place to live and two jobs to support myself... I didn't get a permanent fix to my back, but I did get a good therapist to help manage my pain...
I feel like I have a little too much on my plate right now to handle and a lot has happened this year. Yes, the almost one month of the year that it has been. Unfortunately, due to staff reduction at the theater the number of hours I put in didn't subside any after the holiday season. My only saving grace is that the kids did go back to school. So, now I'm back to part-time with them and a continued over 40 hours at the theater. Too bad I'm not getting paid overtime due to the "part time" title in the entertainment industry. I'm still not 100% sure on how they get away with this... I worked 35 hours just this past weekend, by the way the pay period starts on Fridays, so by the end of the work week I possibly will have worked 55-60 hours. That's really nothing new just a little irritating. Here's to hoping they hire a new supervisor soon!
On another note, I am no long planning to hike the entirety of the AT this summer because I am not going to be physically able to do. Working up to 80 hours a week has put a lot of strain on my back and I can't keep up with it. I have been back to the doctor, received another cortisone injection (at a stronger dose) and have been scheduled for physical therapy for the next twelve weeks as preventative maintenance. I have good days and bad days but still don't feel like I'm improving to the point that it won't bother me on a daily basis. I would really like to get into a workout routine but refer to above mentioned work schedule and let me know when I should squeeze that in with trying to sleep and eat! ( I know what you are thinking... just quit one of the jobs and make time... easier said than done right now as neither place of employment is in the position to afford losing me and I'm not willing to just walkout)...
Next topic, a somewhat more exciting yet daunting process... I have decided to reapply to vet school. I will be applying to Ross University on St. Kitts and St. George's University on Grenada. Both of these school offer rolling admission, and I will be applying for the January 2011 semester. Exciting because it would be the experience of a life time... yet daunting because I have to face either the potential rejection or if accepted the large debts that will follow (donations now being accepted!)
I am still trying to finish the online dog obedience training course. I have set a schedule for myself as I have not yet gotten half way through it and would really like to see myself complete it before the April deadline. So I'm trying to get as much reading done when the kids are sleeping or watching a show in the afternoons.... I wish I could get some of it done at the theater, but there are training course which I must complete there (33 to be exact of which I think I've completed 10) so at least I'm making some progress on that!
Sorry this blog is such a downer.... I am proud of myself for the accomplishments I have made since graduation. Which include finding jobs which allow me to live comfortably and saving money, and most importantly not living at home! But I think it is time again to fight for my dreams and do things that I really want to do and not just things that I am satisfied doing.
I have a long future ahead of me and I would like to start going down the path to make it successful now that I have had time to just do nothing for a while. I'm ready to move on with my life after undergrad and get the ball rolling again.
Okay, my mom is going to yell at me now because I didn't just go to bed like she told me to, but I think it will be okay. It is a new day and I am once again ready to fight in this battle of life. I will be strong, and I am determined to achieve my goals!
